10.06.08

Today has been another pretty good day. I am stressed from having a child on me all the time, but as a whole, this day has me thinking I am pretty blessed. I am trying to improve myself in so many areas. Patience and being calm...destressing...those are all things I am trying for.

James was gone most of the day today. I miss him. He had to go to school, then go to work this evening til 11pm. So two more hours and he will be on his way home! :) I can't wait til he gets here. We are doing pretty well for ourselves. Getting along pretty good. I am seriously getting happy again I think. I have my spells...

Here comes Bethy with her lil grabby hands..."MOMMY MOMMY"...she has a urinary tract infection...so...antibiotics and NO MORE COKE!! I guess I should expect to have to deal with her clinging until she feels better. Which I hope comes soon. She is so0o pitiful it breaks my heart.

Change of Plans

Well, I didn't go to Church of the Cove, because I woke up too late. So, with 15 minutes to get ready, I went to Friendly Hill. I wasn't disappointed though. With no piano player, no preacher, and half the people gone(all on vacation) we had a pretty good service. I liked going to the ladies class in Sunday School. I learned a lil, dealt with Bethy a lot...but once she gets more comfortable, she will surely feel better with the other people.

James and I have gotten along pretty good today. We gave up on the fighting and had a good day. He hasn't been home all that long, but it was enough to make me look at him and say WOW I am so lucky. Hes such a sweetheart. Things have changed SO much between us. We appreciate each other more.

Time to get ready 4 church :]

~~Hours Later~~
Back again. James is playing the PS3 while I play on the computer. I am going to have to get off here soon and snatch him off that game so I can snuggle a few before he has to go tomorrow. He will be gone almost all day, between school and work. I'll miss him :)

Tomorrow, I am planning a few things. One thing I want to do is clean up those toys in Michaels room. Another, I have already forgotten, but I know it was super important >.< I hate it so friggin bad when that happens. I also know I have to go see Allie tomorrow sometime. I am actually looking forward to that though. She is such a sweetheart. Theres a few more things I would like to do, but I don't think I will have the time. I wish I had more hours in the day.

I had thought about visiting some people. Like Mamaw and Papaw, and I also thought about going to see Bill Manning. He isn't well, and hasn't been able to go to church in a while. He is so old too, he may be going into a nursing home soon. I haven't been to church in a while, but Bill was always nice to me when I was going regularly. I want to do some stuff to get more involved...it would do me (and the kids for that matter if I can get them involved too) a lot of good to have real purpose again...but for now, my main purpose is to go get a lil girl off her baby couch, and lay her down in the bed to sleep. Night Night...

Well today is another one of those days. James and I didnt see eye to eye on a couple things last night. We are okay now, we just had a heated discussion about how things should and should not be. Very opinionated, that one is. I am seriously not the fighting kind. I would rather just sit there and chill. I wish he could do the same. We could avoid a lot of arguments if he would just realize that we are individuals who are not going to think the same things about everything. Oh well. Life goes on. I will just deal with him being not-so-agreeable and just ignore him when he gets so hardheaded :P

On another note, Bethy is feeling better. We had to get a pee sample to take back to the doctors office so we could make sure she has no infection there. I dunno...she seems much better. I am thinking it was just one of those viruses going around. I am just glad she is better.

James bought Michael a Batman Lego game for the PS3 and thats what he is doing...Michael, I mean...he is playing the game. So right now, as I sit here playing through my head what I need to be doing right now, Michael is playing Batman, James is studying for his next EMT class on Monday, and Bethy is on his lap watching Mikey play the game.

I have been contemplating all day whether or not to go to Church of the Cove tomorrow morning at 9. I mean...it seems like a good church. There are so many very nice people there. And they have active ministry, whereas the church I usually go to has the same message every day, not many study groups, and mostly focuses just on the youth. I mean, youth focus is great...but we are the ones raising the youth, so it would be super nice to be able to have something for myself too. Michael even seemed interested.

So, off I go to the website to try and make up my mind. I may go just to see what it is like. Seriously...its ONE day out of my life. What could it hurt? That is the new outlook I am taking on most everything now. Its ONE DAY what could it hurt. I was gonna try to do more things with James...even if I fear I may not like it...simply because it might make him happy and its ONE DAY...not to mention most things that he likes, if I end up trying them, I like too...just don't tell him I said that **SHHH**

Well...I have mucho laundry to put away...and a whole crapload of toys to pick up while these kids are being nice and still...we'll see how long that stays that way ;)

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Bethy has been sick for 3 days, and it got worse last night. But now shes okay. We took her to the doctor. They said it may be a virus and told us to get a pee sample and bring it back :/ Thats gonna be difficult, if not practically impossible. Thank God for James. He has saved our asses. Its so so sweet not to have to go through everything alone now. It was really hard without him. I am so0o0o glad hes home.

I am tired. I'll write more tomorrow.

Baby girl is sick today. She is running a fever. I have basically been holding her all day long. I still need to take a shower and get the dishes done, and its already 8pm. I was going to go to rummage sales with mom and nina tomorrow morning, but no. Shes sick and my mom called it off anyway because shes arguing with Dad. I hope that me and James find a common ground so we will never end up like that. Always arguing. Its terrible. Especially on the kids.

So tomorrow, I am not so sure what I will be getting into. I may just try to get this stuff organized from where James moved everything back in yesterday. Things are going really good for us so far. I am happy, and he seems to be too. I hope things work. :) I need 2 take a shower....

I just had to add more pics before I left...most of these were taken on a lil walk we took on the Townsend bike trail. We had a lot of fun. My mamaw even ended up joining us along the way. I love my babies ^_^

Changesssss

Well, here I am again. Many many changes have taken place. Today may be the day that James moves back home. I am unsure. Its either gonna be today or tomorrow. We are excited, of course!I miss him, but its gonna take some getting used to from living alone. This has been the first time I have done that in years.

Life brings change, sometimes for the best, sometimes for the worst. The only thing we know for sure is we will have many hard decisions to make along the way. We just have to hope we are making the right ones. Its no longer just about us...its about family, our babies, our friends, and everyone else that might be affected by our many wise or perhaps not so wise decisions along the way. I had a choice to make, and I made the choice I thought would be best for everyone, not just me.

That being said...I may be going back to school. Thanks to the encouragement of a very very supportive man that I just happen to get to call my own. I have filed all the paperwork and am awaiting the arrival of my acceptance letter in the mail. I am so excited and nervous all at the same time. I am also trying to decide on a new hobby. I see all these super creative and artistic people around me, and I just wish I had something I could be REALLY good at. I mean...really really good. Something practical and useable in real life.

Sure I can make awesome pictures on Photoshop, but that doesnt really get used alot. I can make jewelry, but its not that great. I want to find something that I can excel at. Something that will have my friends and family saying "Amy, will you make me one?" hehe. It's gonna take a lot of thought. I just need a hobby to keep me off this PC all the time. And perhaps something I can get my kids involved in as well. I want to do more stuff with them.

So, anyway...its time for me to get off of here and wake up and do something. I have been up for two hours and haven't accomplished anything but a mess.