Better Day?

I am determined for today to be better than the last few. Robby and I got along really well. He's working his ass off, and I miss him like hell, but he has to do it. There is no way around it. I have to accept that he just won't be here much and find ways to deal with it, and try to be happy with things in the process.

I got a good start on my housework this morning, even though I still feel like I am missing something. I have the dishes started from last nights midnight supper, and the laundry is DONE, all this was before 7am. I have to sweep and mop today, and get the desk straightened and the papers taken care of before it drives me insane. I am so0o tired of not being organized anymore.

Before I let James take over all the organizing, I had it going on...I knew what was going on, I knew what bills needed taken care of, I knew where ALL MY STUFF WAS?! And things didn't get lost. Now I lay a piece of paper down on the desk and it is gone within hours. How does this happen? Do I have a mysterious paper eating desk monster? No I doubt it. I just need to get my crap in order.

Robby just called. I think he just wanted to say hello, because there was no real reason behind it. That can only mean one thing...he mighta missed me. I like being wanted. I wish James wanted me like this :( Rob was so sweet last night and this morning, I feel so bad for him having to work so damn hard just for it to be taken away by someone else.

I have to go start supper now. I am gonna make crockpot cabbage soup...I needed something that would be good whenever Robby got home and would require very lil effort on my part because he won't be here til midnight again. I don't feel like cooking a meal that late, but I still want him to have something yummeh since he will have worked so0o hard all day. That sounds like the perfect dinner. Easy peasy.

~update~
Today really was a better day. Robby is late, but he may be getting to come home soon I don't really know. I worked HARD on the house today, and so far, my living room is perfect, and my papers are filed now...and my kitchen is halfway done, I cleaned up as well as I could without dragging everything out today...I'll work more on it tomorrow. My bathroom is clean, just needs more decluttering. I am going to try to get whatever I can done so that I won't be stressing tomorrow when I have to take the kids to the doctor. I dread that.

I have only a few things left to do, like hang up the clothes, and I will be able to sit and just watch tv til Robby gets home. I guess I am procrastinating doing that. I don't know why because it only takes a minute to put them up :/ Oh well. I will get to it.

Robby is wanting to go out and do something tonight if he gets to come home. I dunno what we will be doing though, cause we are flat broke. I think he is just sick of being cooped up in the house when he comes home, even if he is only home lately long enough to sleep. I guess we will figure out something to do. Surely. Even if its just go sit on the river bank or ride our bikes along the bike path. We'll see. I enjoyed riding my bike the other day too. It was fun once I got the hang of it.

I should go hang up clothes now. I'll post again tomorrow...