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Here I am once again, trying to start a blog for whatever reason, who knows. I am so0o tired of sitting here procrastinating, yet here I am, starting something else.

So...here goes...

I am a 26 year old mother of two. I homeschool my 6 year old son, Michael. I am with my daughter Bethany right now, she is 2 years old. Every other weekend, I have Robby's son, Hunter. Its a hard struggle to get used to the way things should be.

We are trying to combine two families with two different ways of doing things, and do it peacefully. Our children are still struggling to get used to not having both their real parents there together. We are still struggling to get used to the way things are now, and the way we are with one another. I love my babies, and I love his baby too. Its just hard sometimes. Very very hard.

My housework struggles because when I was with my daughters father, I dealt with depression in a very bad way, and I quit doing the things I should have done. Now I am trying to catch things back up, straighten up, and hold my family together all at once. I miss some things, how things used to be. But there are so many things I would never ever have go back to the way they were.

I am trying FlyLady again. It helped, even though I never did follow everything, I had the guidelines to do so. I had a guide to what I should be doing, instead of sitting here aimlessly, I had focus to my thoughts. I want that again. I want focus. More than anything right now.

I hope that by starting this new blog, it will help me focus, and also help me clear my head. I need that too. I have SO0o0O many thoughts clogging up my head, and so many things to have to keep track of with this new life I am leading...I really don't even know WHAT I am thinking anymore. I have to keep up with my boyfriends issues and things, new bills, new housework, new kids, new everything.

I am so ready for things to get settled in. So so ready.