tick tock

I have NO TIME! to blog today...so I dub this FRAZZLED OUT FRIDAY!!! I will TRY to come back tomorrow!

~a lil while later~
I found the time! for a second, anyway. My dear James is still at work. My dear son is at his grandmas, and my dear daughter is asleep in the recliner, after watching Harry Potter for I don't know how long. I am so stressed. I told James that my brain was like a traffic jam. There are so many thoughts trying to fit through a tiny space, and that space keeps getting smaller and all my thoughts just freeze. Nothing seems to work anymore.

So he and I aren't getting along again. For now. We will both be over it soon. I am over it already, but I can't let him know that cause I am stubborn. Does that make me mean? I guess I keep it going by doing that. I have never been one to swallow my pride or give up too easily. But all I wanted was one simple tiny lil thing, and he was so hateful about it. And I asked nicely for so long. I get so tired of asking when I really REALLY need something and he just didn't care. So we ended up in an argument over it. All he had to do was make one lil phone call.

Anyway. I need to learn how to deal with things better. I should have just prayed that he would make that phone call I so desperately wanted him to make. I should have just waited. I don't know. But I can only handle so much. I need relationship counseling because I really don't know how to deal with anyone in my life. I am terrible with other people. What can I do???

I am trying SO hard to be a better person. I want to make things work for me and my family and all those around me. I want my family to be happy. But there are times when I just break. I take so much and then I snap. I don't know how to control my mouth or thoughts. It's something I must practice. Does anyone have any tips? I need a mentor!