Life....or something like it

Well, my camera started working again all by itself. Thank you, Lord. I love my camera. More than I should probably. I have thousands of pictures that I have taken over the years. Mostly of my babies. I have a mission, since I started my 365 Project, which you can see if you click over there >>>>> to see my full profile. My mission is to take a picture a day. This mission became a lil more personal to me. I want to take these pictures of our MEMORIES...as a family and a couple.

I realized here lately that life is so short. The only thing that I have of my past to help me remember is the pictures. My Mamaw has so many pictures of me as a child. In Cades Cove, at home, at church, playing, working, you name it. These pictures made me feel special as I was growing up. They showed me that I did have a past that wasn't just riddled with hard times and sadness. I was a generally happy child. I was loved and taken care of. I never wanted for anything. I smiled, I had dreams, I was...loved.

Its hard sometimes for me to remember things. I think a lot is because of stress, and a lot is because of the damage that was done to my brain from having one too many blows to the head by a man who wasn't mad at me, he was mad at his past. I never saw pictures of him from his family. Those I did see weren't too happy. He came from a broken home. He had no childhood to look back on and smile about. Anyway, its hard for me to remember. Its hard to pick out any single event that has happened in my lifetime. Those pictures help ground me.

This is why these photos that I take aren't just important for my children. They are important for me. I want to rest assured that my babies will have their pictures and lives to check out and say WOW we had a nice life. I want to make sure that if my memory gets worse, these pictures will remind me of how precious my life has been.